Last week, a young man named Jordan succumbed to a rare form of soft tissue sarcoma. He was to be twenty one years old yesterday. Jordan fought hard. This young man loved basketball, where he played on a college team near Greenville, SC. He was a member of a youth group at a church where I was once the youth director. His family prayed hard, hoping for a miracle, but the miracle they wanted never happened. They had a celebration of life service for him this past Saturday.
This past Saturday, another man named Jim succumbed at the age of 63 to a 15 month battle with another form of Cancer. He played guitar at the church where I am currently the music director. Weak from the disease, he played the guitar for the last time on August 17 with our church band. Always dedicated, and up until he passed was waiting for that last minute miracle, always expressing his faith in God.
Today, I sit at my computer, not knowing what will be next for me. I have my own health issues that cause extreme pain, and are preventing me from working full time. This is a burden physically, and financially. I am hoping God will work wonders for me, but to date, nothing has happened, and my diagnosis still remains the same. I hope and I pray that "miracle" will come, but nothing so far.
All three of us, Jordan, Jim and Myself have kept faith. Two of us have succumbed. I have not been so fortunate.
There are days when I just want to give up. There are days when I give God the ultimatum to either heal me or take me. He does neither. So much for giving God ultimatums.
There are days when I want to curse God. There I days when I want to send Jesus back to the cross and re-crucify him. Why isn't God answering the prayers of His people and healing those who follow hard after Him?
In all of this, I still cannot reverse my faith. I know that I have to trust God. I know that circumstances will come that will make me strong. I know that I am a very small part of a very big picture. Many will affect the lives of a few, and a few will affect the lives of many. Which one am I?
What would you do? Some of you are in similar circumstances, or know someone who is. What keeps YOU going? What keeps THEM going? How do YOU and THEY keep the faith from going in reverse?
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Hi, I'm a musician, I live in a house and I have 3 dogs. I believe in God and Jesus, and am the most imperfect person in the world. The hand I have been dealt is better than most, but not as good as others. I am blessed to be alive, and looking forward to the day when this body will be replaced.
Member Since: 10/4/2006
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